Tuesday, December 20, 2016

Serendipity

No matter how much we try, some days are ought to be bad. I came home after a long day at work and had to rush to music class. I had not done the homework my teacher had asked me to do and it was making me a bit restless. With some idea of the songs I was taught last week, I managed through the class only to hurry to my usual hour-long yoga session. My Tuesday evenings are really busy!

While the rest of the evening was all about housework, plans for the next day and phone calls, when I finally got into the bed, I was not quite happy with how cold it was getting outside. I love winters but I hate being cold. I cannot sleep without a small window open in the bedroom, it gives me a sense of clean air entering into the room while we are asleep. But tonight, keeping this window open only meant inviting the super cold winds in (by the way, I am in my socks, a thick sweater and tucked up tight in a super thick comforter...), which were sure to ruin my sleep in spite of having the huge chill-blocking-mountain, my husband, beside me. He is my personal Himalayan range.

So...as expected, I wake up groggy from the sleeplessness of the cold night. I walk towards the kitchen to fetch the lunch box from the refrigerator for my husband, who is already wearing his usual dirty blue shirt in his usual hurry to make it to his 6.15 a.m. office cab. Too early you say? yep...we are morning people, even when sometimes I want to snuggle up and sleep a little more! My husband lovingly wishes me a good morning and I frown. He was supposed to be the chill-blocker, but all he did last night was - snore his night away lying flat on his back!

Anyway... I could not expect my day to start any better with the chill still in the morning air. At 7.00 a.m., I walk out all insulated in a jacket over my t-shirt and denims, shoes (my socks are the thickest ones from the lot today!), a stole around my neck and a scarf over my head. I feel prepared and protected. With a positive feel, I find my phone and try booking a cab to work. While on this task, I am thinking what all might go wrong with this whole cab thing. There might not be any cabs in the vicinity, the drivers might deny duties saying they are far away from the pickup location, if the cab turns up the driver might not like me paying through digital wallet (yes, some still have reservations towards the recent demonetization that happened in India), he might say it's too short a ride and ask for directions constantly even when Google Maps has it all figured out for him, he would complain all the way till the drop point and take me speeding over all the speed-breakers possible! Oh my!
... As for my fears, the driver denied duty.

Annoyed, I look outside the big window. The world is engulfed in fog and I have a feeling of going back to bed.

Still the OCD'd person in me frantically looks for another cab. The ride is confirmed. The driver agrees to pick me up. I prepare myself for the ride, climb down the stairs and get into the cab, which is already waiting there for me. The driver verifies my details and we start. I dig into the seat and pull-in all warmth within myself. To my surprise, the driver rolls up the windows, all four of them. He fiddles with the stereo and changes to a track which happens to be one of my favorites! Ahh! the sound of one's favorite music on a stupid morning can be rejuvenating! I decide to enjoy the song and not to give any directions to the driver today. He has the maps, he should navigate! I am still irritated from the sleeplessness. The warm car and the music were not yet fully doing their thing. I don't talk a word to the man and, like a sunny warm breeze on a chilly day, we ride and the driver stops exactly at the drop point!  I know it sounds so very obvious and uninteresting to you. But for a person who has had a bad night and a bad start to her day, this was a miracle!

I quietly tell him that I am not paying by cash and keep myself ready for his complaints. He looks back at me and says with a smile - "Madam, it's taken care by your online wallet. No problem!"
I am happy but still not ready to believe that he is a nice guy I met on a dangerously cold morning. I utter a thank you, pick myself up and my bag and make it for the door. As I shut the door behind me, the driver calls out loudly - "Madam! Have a nice day!!", smiles, doesn't wait for my reply and drives away. He doesn't speed, he drives smoothly through the slowly building traffic. What an unusual sight in a city like mine. I stand there watching him for a moment. I smile at this serendipity and say - "Good day to you too, Sir."

Tuesday, August 9, 2016

Delirium

Wake up. But not to reality.
Walk. Aimlessly.
Smile. Fearfully.
Think. In loop. Miscalculated time complexity.
Talk. Senselessly.
Play. Meet. Greet. Involuntarily.

Sun sets.
Darkness Spreads.Stays.
Strange faces emerge. Disfigured. Bruised and battered.

Mind plays games.
Shows hope. Momentarily.
Makes one leap. Leap higher.
And finally fall. Fall with a thud.
Broken. To remain.
Period.

 

Tuesday, June 28, 2016

Made for each other

The  sky so grey and heavy,
laden with a thousand secrets,
has playfully held them all back from the earth...
and she in turn, has refused to continue talking to him...

They do this all the while...
call names, play, fight and sulk...
until one of them realizes its stupid and gives in..
young love... so childlike..

He drifts away a bit and she can keep away no more...
She tricks the cold winds into tickling him, and he burst out laughing..
and it rains...
and the earth giggles..triumphant...
Not long before she plays another prank on the grayish sky..
like always.

It makes them what they are.
Made for each other.

Thursday, January 21, 2016

Time repeats itself...

Extremely small is our existence,
So small, that we know not how big the 'outside' is.
We make our own local worlds and find peace in them,
Pretending to know well of the larger worlds outside ours.

We take decisions, jump to conclusions,
Make predictions and determine the ends...
Unaware of the fact that the beginnings and ends are decided already,
Unaware... that they both are tied tightly in time somewhere.

Speaking of the 'time', I believe,
That it repeats itself several times over...
Good and bad both can be waiting to happen in the same stationary form somewhere once again in time...
Like the present, that sees one going away, 
And the future that will see one return to where it all had started.

Because when time shifts... it repeats itself again...
May be it has somehow exhausted all its surprises.

Sunday, November 1, 2015

Life happens...



Life happens…
And several things … both good and different happen with it.
Some of the many things make one happy,
And most, cease to make sense, that’s why those things are different to me.

How virtuous it is to make sense of the senseless?
May be it makes one more experienced, but it all ends right there.
One drowning oneself in the quest of solving the mystery of its cause,
Doesn’t make senseless things to stop happening.
Life ... doesn’t stop happening.

So, spend no time in being engrossed about things that  happen not so well but happen differently,
There are better things you are ignoring unnecessarily...


Sunday, October 12, 2014

I shall stand by you


I shall stand by you in times good and bad
For... I am lucky to find you
In times I felt were times of darkness

For you have shone like a star in my nights
Making them beautiful once again

For you have brought back to me my freedom
Freedom from my past

For you have made me stronger
and taught me to fight the battles of life

I shall stand by you
For... I always want to...
 

Take my heart away...

Take my heart
Cause it cries when it finds out that you are not here
Take my heart
Cause it feels heavy with the feeling of pain and separation
Take my heart
Cause it skips a beat every time you call out its name
Take my heart
Cause it is tried several times to be strong but has failed
Take my heart
Cause it loves you
Take my heart
Take my heart away...